Saturday, November 23, 2013

A Great Woman Has Passed Into The Ethers

This is Savannah's son writing to you today. Savannah Blaze Lee passed from the entrapments of this physical plane. It was some time early in the morning on Thursday, November 21st 2013. She likely passed in her sleep as I found her in her bed looking peaceful.

She would not want you to be sad. She was a strong lady. She was as happy as a person who had suffered a stroke a year and a half ago (with a subsequent cancer diagnosis just months after) could be. She was living with myself and her daughter-in-law who cared for her and loved her greatly. Despite the aches and pains of her failing body and the speech problems she was left with, she continued to be jovial and active up until the very last night that we saw her.

Anyone who has read this blog or her books knows that she had a hard life. This came out in rants, particularly here, but was always peppered with her signature humor and sage wisdom afforded someone who has seen so deeply into the fabric of this carnival we call life. It was hard for her to express those sentiments toward the end, but she kept on writing because, as Kurt Vonnegut, Jr. said,

"Tiger got to hunt, bird got to fly; Man got to sit and wonder 'why, why, why?" Savannah not creating was like a fish out of water.

I hope to continue this blog in her memory and to publish what she has not already. She was prolific in many creative pursuits. I hope to honor that with my meager abilities.

You will be missed, dear one. But the adventure has just begun.


Sunday, July 28, 2013

The End of the Chapter

My Son's dad died today. And trying to remind myself of the good times. He got cancer and it was got he got morphine. That's the way to go, Dave! I was listening to Rush's "Fly By Night", but couldn't. I settled on Ben Folds Five, "Thank You for Breaking My Heart". It was appropriate. We had so many good times and I will miss you.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

First Week Done

I'm going to write something, before going back to ignoring for a time. Radiation going well and maybe chemo soon; will let you know. Dr. Wong is optimistic and the Kids are hanging in there. I feel so sorry for them. I'm thankful to have time since the stroke to see them. Good wishes to you and sending a lot of light.

Tuesday, April 09, 2013

What the Hell is Happening?

I can't remember when my stepson died; it's been sucky and a lot not good. I had a collapsed lung and mention of the "C" word - if I refuse to believe. You'll just have to bear with me and write. Couldn't breathe and been in hospital and started radiation to get healthy to enough for chemo. I had quit smoking awhile back and was getting exercise. Right now I'm just pissed and sad. The Kids are handling it and better than me.

I lived quite a life and much it hasn't been easy. I don't believe there is a God, but I'm willing to accept good thoughts. I love you all and just get me healthy. Send 1000 Cranes.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Still Coping

The Rev and the Princess due back today. Can't imagine the family meeting their daughter-in-law for the first time. I'm doing nothing and except soaking up sunshine and witnessing sunrises and sunsets. Pretty much wasting 4 days; all I could do. But did go a cleaning binge - and baking. It's what I do when stressed. Memories for my Mom.

Supposed to continue Life of Pi. The teachers treated, to actually, Apple Pie on 3/14 or 3.14 (i.e. Pi). They are awesome.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

A Terrible Day

Too much is happening and not much of it good. My stepson, the nicest kid ever, suffered a massive stroke and machines are being off at noon. His brother died at 18 and I can't imagine how hard this is the for ex-husband. And it's too soon since my own stroke. My son is taking it hard and bolstering of his Mom in the process. We did have some good years with those kids. And worse - her dad was going to walk his daughter down the aisle for her wedding this Saturday. Craig collapsed at a religious retreat - what kind of message is that?!

I will miss you, gentle son, and bless you that there was no pain. This sucks, and if there was a God - whatever . . .

3/13/13 for Craig

Monday, March 04, 2013

Can't Wait for the Tiger!

Still slowly reading Life of Pi and getting into definitions of Agnostics and Atheists. So many of Stroke Center's people t-shirts have print of says stuff like "Jesus Rocks', etc. I will try to keep my mouth shut for lengthy times. (Hint: Yes, I am an Atheist, but it's not popular.)